Whirlwind

Emotions high, anxiety rising, heart experiencing pain, guilt flowing, sadness simmering, whirlwind within my own mind. An experience I have never experienced, an experience able to consume the mind of 9427290 feelings. Trying to keep my s*** together, trying to hold myself together, trying to support others, trying to sleep throughout the night without interrupted thoughts, trying to keep my social life. Trying to write, mental blocks appearing each time, emotions getting involved, unable to write positive. Self- care being neglected, self-love being put on hold, consumed with those 9427580 feelings 24/7.

Using other experiences I have experienced to pull myself together, to remain with self- love, self- care, without those two parts working we couldn’t be the best version of ourselves and right now for the people around me and for the person within me I need to be this version. (She’s the best)

I will be back to writing as much as I can when my mind is able, I will not beat myself up on the days I can not write, I will allow my body to feel how it feels and move on to the next day as a new chapter.

Remember, be the best version of yourself, even when life is throwing challenges, YOU are important, you deserve self- love and self-care always, you do what you need to provide love to yourself before you provide all your love to others. YOU have got this.

Reading + Anxiety

Hi guys,

I am here, my evenings have actually become very robotic when it comes to getting to bed. I light my ‘cosy up’ Yankee candle and start reading my present book hidden underneath my quilt whilst my fan is blowing breezily towards me. (= total bliss) My favourite hour of each week often now is walking to my local cafe, ordering a pint of Diet Coke (maybe a cookie) and reading a book for an hour – honestly, try it.

Anyone who suffers with anxiety or even just a mind that doesn’t quite understand how to slow down then I advice to read, I was a book worm when young, then grew out of it once going with my friends was much ‘cooler.’ I now have find the love again. It is an escape, it is time out and it is something I can officially call a hobby. You can read any book you like on anything you like, paperback, kindle or phone. Do it for YOU, have a break for YOU and allow yourself to have YOU time.